My Life Story on how I met Jesus.
As part of a Debate between...
Conversation
with Muslims and
Shongwe
Enough Mzwakhe
on the Facebook Page Conversation with
Muslims. <https://www.facebook.com/IsaAlsoLovesMuslims/>
1. The
Context of this initiative:
Debate between Conversation with Muslims and Shongwe Enough Mzwakhe
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One
of the friends on our page, Shongwe Enough Mzwakhe... (On a post where
ex-Muslims are invited to share why they left Islam)
👉Testify that he is an Ex-Christian.✝️❌
"Alhamdulillah, I'm at EX-CHRISTIAN"
(Alhamdulillah means "Glory or thanks to God")
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👉Further he explained...what he thinks of us...
"Everyone running this page is childish!"
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👉Further he Challenge us to a debate...
"If you are brave, then I challenge you guys to an online Facebook live
debate! On any topic".
My Response:
✔️Yes,
I am willing to enter in the debate, but not before I first ask God's blessing
for this, that His Holy Spirit lead me (and my friend Shongwe Enough Mzwakhe)
to bring the most Glory to Him as Almighty God and our Creator, our Father in
heaven, the only one before whom we both will stand on judgement day.🛐
HALLELUJA!
Good Night for now, Shongwe.
See you about this, if God so will, tomorrow.
https://youtu.be/MC1Nvn4Bk0Y
In my follow up with Shongwe:
I understand that you asked me for a debate between
our Christian/Islam differences. It is clear; you like Debates. I saw it in
your previous posts on our Page. That’s fine with me although I personally am
not so fond of debates, especially when it is about the controversies between
our Religions, stuff that is already done by so many Scholars and available on
many internet websites, like... Islam or Christian and Qur'an or Bible.
As my Bible command me in 1 Peter 3:15-16 “Always be
prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for
the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect, keeping
a clear conscience, so that those who speak maliciously against your good
behavior in Christ may be ashamed of their slander.” This text gives a warning
or guideline to both of us – no slander or degrading against each others’
viewpoints. I will do my best to adhere to it from my side.
The reason I thought it is a good idea to first kick off
with our life stories (as we are both connected as Christians; I am a
Christian while you said you are an “Ex-Christian”).
It seemed that you were not so positive about this way. You
responded with: “Why talk about our life stories? Why not debate an actual
topic and debate that? What is there to debate about in life stories?”
Therefor I explained my reason as follows: I think that's
part of the preparation before we can do any meaningful discussions. I first
want to see if there is any truth in my partner. He said he is an Ex-Christian.
I want to hear his life story first. I am willing to do my part. Are you afraid
of sharing your past? The "Before" part, how it happened that you made
the shift, and then the change in your life now. Thanks. You're welcome.
Shongwe’s response about this... “Let us do
this. Send me the link, and I hope this will be published on your Facebook
page.”
Later he wrote, in response to supporters who
want the “Debate” to continue:
“Online Live FACEBOOK debate! Any topic, as long as it's a
neutral topic.
Such as:
Islam or Christian, which is the Religion of God?
Or "The
Qur'an or the Bible, which is the word of God?"
I'm ready anytime.”
He also responded later to them... “They don't wanna
debate topics, they want us to talk about our "life stories".
My Question to Shongwe: I am not sure if you will
join this line of doing; If you are willing to really tell me your life story
as well, your life as a child, your family life later, your testimony of how
you became a Christian initially etc. I really look forward to hearing this
from you.
Shongwe, Here, now, a short version of my Life story.
2. MY LIFE BEFORE I BECAME A CHRISTIAN
I was born on a farm, wonderful
opportunities as a child. My parents were secular Christians, going to church
now and then, reading the Bible sometimes etc., but with no personal
relationship with Jesus Christ. I was baptized as a baby in the Reformed Church
and as I grew up, thought I were a Christian as everybody else.
Therefore, from a young age I was
“religious”. My Parents thought, and I also thought, that I was mostly a very “good”
boy and not too naughty.
But I did many things that was only
known to me: My personal secrets. The Bible calls it sin. My favorite teacher
thought I was extremely cute and always preferred me over others, but behind
her back I did more than naughty things. I even stole her sweets and other
things behind her back. She never caught me out.
I had one good friend on the farm,
a child of one farm worker, that led me astray many times. Once we tried to
test the “fact” that a cat has 7 lives. We planned to kill this cat 7 times to
proof it wrong. For me it still is a terrible afterthought, remembering what cruel
things we did to that cat.
Unfortunately, there were more such
stories in my life, that only I know about, myself and God. Many things in my
life that God later slowly began to reveal to me. I slowly started to realize the
meaning of the word “Sin” – those things that hurts God’s heart and was not to
His glory at all. The verse in Rom 3:23 became more than a reality to me “for
all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God”
As I grew older, I experienced some
of the hypocrisy from many so-called Christians, some who were our church
members. I realized how my own parents were living with a big hatred in their
hearts towards nearby family members. We as children were not allowed to play
with them (although one of the girls was really one of my favorites). I will
not go deep into the background of this whole story, but the reality was that they
did not want to forgive them or repent from their own sin. I started to
question my parents’ sincerity as Christians and started questioning my own.
But I really wanted more. I really
wanted to be sure that I was a child of Jesus, but did not know how; Many times,
alone in the field I prayed: "Please Lord Jesus, make me Your child."
However, He never, as I expected it, appeared to me, or spoke to me in a voice
as I was thought it should be.
I was also too embarrassed to ask
anyone's help. What would they think of me? And one thing I became more and
more sure about. Christianity must be a fake as most Christians I knew lived a
faked life.
3. QUESTIONS ABOUT GOD THAT GREW STRONGER IN ME.
I remembered many
times, even from a young age, I asked myself: Is God there? Can I be sure about
God and that I am His child? And about all my sins, how to be forgiven and make
peace with God, how to be sure that I will have eternal life and in heaven with
God. This question grew stronger in me.
I read my Bible, but
maybe I did not know how to read and understand it. I read about the conversion
op Apostle Paul in Acts 9, how he saw a light and heard a voice, how he met
Jesus himself. That idea got stuck in my head. I was thinking that God needed
to speak like that to me. I asked and prayed, but that never happened!
4. THE DRAMATIC CONVERSION OF ONE OF OUR FARM WORKERS THAT CAN ONLY BE A MIRACLE!
During this time, I strongly doubted if repentance and a
change of life is at all possible.
Then this happened: This man, who served on our farm
for three generations, with great dedication as part of our household; somebody
whom I admired very much for his natural wisdom and his love for me as a child;
something happened to him, something that everybody called a miracle.
This man had one big problem: He was addicted to alcohol all
his life, getting drunk every weekend and then doing many bad things! My father
tried to help him to recover many times, but he often said it was just
impossible that he could ever change.
Then one day he came and announced to us: "I am
converted; I am a real Christian now, and now I stopped drinking".
Everyone was amazed and skeptical about it. Impossible! This will not last! But
not only did he never use alcohol again; his whole life changed.
His testimony helped many other people to also took God
seriously in their lives. And myself? I realized that real repentance and a
change of life is possible.
5. HOW MY PARENTS WAS TOUCHED BY THIS MAN’S LIFE CHANGE.
These same evangelists that helped that man also started
working among the farmers. They also came to visit my parents and heard about
the bad relationship with our family members. They did not leave it there; they
helped them to accept Jesus as Lord and correct what was wrong.
As a young child I will never forget how my parents knelt
and prayed and confessed their sins, how my father later drove away in his car,
on its way to the other family - the people whom they hated for generations -
to go and heal those relationship. This was the end of those unforgiving
relationship.
My parents became truly spiritually anew after their
conversion. I remember how they often kept quiet times for hours and read the
Bible and prayed, also for me.
6. THE HUGE IMPACT THAT THIS MADE ON MY OWN LIFE.
During my whole school life, but since then, I searched for
God more urgently. I wanted so strongly to know how to become a child of God;
how to be sure of my own salvation. But it not realized.
My search for assurance of salvation later developed into
fear. Suppose I die? What will become of me? I did not want to go to hell. This
fear for hell increased.
But I never shared these questions with anyone. I kept them
all for myself.
I remembered one time during a high school holiday, I was
even too scared at night to blow out the oil lamp (we still had no electricity
then.) In the mornings, my mother was annoyed with me because all the oil of
the lamp was burnt out. A waste of precious oil.
I could never tell her the real reason for keeping the lamp
burning.
7. HOW I FINALLY MET GOD AND CAME TO A PLACE OF PEACE.
My spiritual questions remained throughout my school career
- the search for certainty that I was a child of God. In my last year of
school, my father suddenly died, and it was a further huge blow to me.
The next year I had to go to University, to a place far
away, for me it was a very strange and lonely experience that certainly made my
search for certainty with God even more intense.
I constantly feared what would happen if I had to die;
whether I would be acceptable to God. Satan the evil enemy, constantly fed the
doubt in me. I felt that God apparently did not want to answer me. My need for
a sign or audible voice from God never materialized.
Then one Sunday night it became unbearable and I spoke to a senior
student who I met. I later realized this was God’s answer to my deep questions
and searching for God.
I told this friend my whole story and my search for God for
all these years.
I asked my friend: What must I do to be saved? To
become sure of my Salvation in Christ?
That evening he simply and step by step explained to me the
path to Salvation. He used Romans 3:23-26 for this purpose.
That evening for the first time I understood it and it made
sense to me.
· Yes, we all are sinners (Rom
3:23 “...for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God”), but when I
confess my sins to God, I am forgiven by the grace of God (Rom 3:24 “...by his
grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus” )
· Jesus' merits on the cross pay for
all sin, including
mine (Rom 3:25 “God presented Christ as a sacrifice of atonement, through the
shedding of his blood—to be received by faith.”)
· That I must accept God's promises of forgiveness, childhood, and
eternal life by faith, simply believing the Word of God. (John 1:12 – Quoted
later)
· My friend opened my eyes for the meaning
of grace; that I did not have to do anything myself. I cannot
do anything from my side to please God or earn it by myself as He already sacrificially
paid all with His own death on the Cross. This is free! The moment I try to
earn it from my side, I questioned the completeness of His sacrifice for me. He
paid for all my guilt with His Life.
· He explained further to me that my
whole future life should be one of thanksgiving, to glorify and serve God
for what he did for me. (Rom 6:13... “rather offer yourselves to God as those
who have been brought from death to life; and offer every part of yourself to
him as an instrument of righteousness.”)
· Lastly, I understood the promise of
being a child of God and forgiveness of my sins as being a gift from God that
lead to eternal life (Rom 6: 22-23 “But now that you have been set free
from sin and have become slaves of God, the benefit you reap leads to holiness,
and the result is eternal life. For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of
God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.”)
· I also realized that I did not need
any experience or feeling to be sure of God’s love and forgiveness. I just
had to accept it in faith! He promised it. It is true!
That night I did just that! On my knees with the open Bible,
Joh. 1:12 suddenly made sense to me “But to all who received him, to those who
believed in him, he gave the right to become children of God.”
That night, since the time I started looking for salvation
from a young age, I was now for the first time sure that I was a child of God; sure
of my salvation in Christ.
From then on, the Holy Spirit opened the Bible for me; Bible
study had become a priority and a joy. My whole life got new meaning; it
determined the rest of my future life and decisions that I would have to make.
8. NOW? I AM STILL ABSOLUTELY SURE OF MY SALVATION.
It is so wonderful to still be sure that
I am a child of God, sure of my salvation in Christ.
It is now more than
50 years since that night that I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior.
I never doubted this
again; Up till this day I am still more than ever sure of it because that is
what God promises in His Word, and that is enough.
Yes, I have times of
doubt about many life issues, why the world is still such a terrible place, why
there are still so much suffering, why so many people are still without the
knowledge of Christ – 2000 years after Christ’s coming to this world etc., but
this I know: One day He will return to finish it off when He will come again.
In the meantime, I cherish
the Word of God in John 10:28 “I give them eternal life, and they shall never
perish; no one will snatch them out of my hand.”
What a privilege it was since that night to serve God! (That is a Life Story for another book).
What a privilege it still is to share it with you, until the
day He will call me home.
Hallelujah.
Praise the Lord!
Conversation with Muslims - 2020.
